I’m so tired of everything. My eyes are puffy from crying. My head hurts from worrying. My grades are falling. My parents are disappointed in me. I miss Edward so much. It’s getting to be too much. I’m drowning in all of my thoughts and I feel stretched too thin. I don’t know what to do. I’ve bottled up too many thoughts and it’s exploding everywhere; it’s freaking me out. Everything right now feels so heavy. It hurts feeling this way and not knowing where to start. I’m trying to make everyone happy, but sometimes it hurts. Please let me be happy. 

Even though I’m already out of school, I’m still stressing over how much and what I still have left. I wish I could plan out which classes I need to take each semester, but what I can’t plan for is 1) what time the class will be taught 2) will the class even be taught that semester and 3) what if the classes coincide? I need to make a list of the classes left to do, so don’t mind me if I do (I just need something done on paper to make a check list) Sorry in advance!!:

Biology major: 2 class of Lab left, 12 credits of 3/400 classes, Cell Bio, and Bio WI class

• Major Requirements/University Writing Requirements left
  • [3] BIOL 293 - Cell Bio 
  • [3] BIOL 405W - Bio Seminar (fills Writing Intensive requirement)
• 300/400 Level Bio electives [12]/2 Lab classes (possibilities to choose from for both)
  • [5] BIOL 315 General Microbiology (WANT TO TAKE)
  • [2] BIOL 410 Immunology Lab (recommended BIOL 409 lecture [3])
  • [4] BIOL 407 Molecular and Immunological Techniques
  • [4] BIOL 454 Parasitology
  • [4] BIOL 497 Honors Research
  • [1-3] BIOL 497 Undergrad Research

Health Science major

• Departmental Requirements for Health Science (both online)
  • [3] CHP 430W Community Health Resources and Health Promotion
  • [3] CHP 450 Public and Community Health Administration
• Concentration in Ophthalmic Technology
  • Fall Semester 15 credits
    • [4] OPHS 311 Patient Evaluation and Data Collection
    • [3] OPHS 312 Ocular Anatomy and Physiology
    • [5] OPHS 320 Clinical Sciences I
    • [3] OPHS 321 Technical Skills I
  • Spring Semester 12 credits
    • [3] OPHS 330 Clinical Sciences II
    • [5] OPHS 335 Special Diagnostic Testing
    • [4] OPHS 337 Clinical Education I
  • Summer Semester 7 credits
    • [5] OPHS 350 Clinical Education II
    • [2] OPHS 352 Clinical Topics/Problem Solving
  • Fall Semester 13 credits
    • [5] OPHS 420 Special Rotation I
    • [5] OPHS 421 Special Rotation II
    • [3] OPHS 430 Advanced Topics I
  • Spring Semester 13 credits
    • [5] OPHS 422 Special Rotation III
    • [5] OPHS 423 Special Rotation IV
    • [3] OPHS 440 Advanced Topics II

Honors College

• [1] HNRS 387 Civic Learning Project
• [3] HNRS 499 Senior Honors Thesis
• 4 more Lectures credits
• make 2 of my 300/400 level classes “honors”

Biochemistry minor (still thinking on it pursuing since I’m close to a minor)

• Minor in Biochemistry/Prerequisite: Biochemistry Minor
  • [2] CHEM 214 Organic Chem II Lab 
  • [3] CHEM 441 Biochemistry Lecture
  • [4] CHEM 442W Biochemistry Laboratory
  • [3] CHEM 443 Intermediate Biochemistry Lecture
  • CHEM 116N (… this class doesn’t exist anymore, so what do I do?)

There’s so much I want/have to do… I don’t even know how to sort all of this once I have it all down in writing. Health Science comes first since it’s at EVMS, so I just have to work around it and fit the other classes in between. But how can I plan for classes that might not even be there/be in time conflict? I only have about 5 or 6 more classes of Bio left (2 are made into honors classes), 2 more Honors courses, and then the rest is online and EVMS (Then 4 more classes if I really had time for Biochem, which I honestly want to try). Ughh, no idea where to start. And then financing my classes and rent is another huge worry of mine. Gah overload!! If anyone has tips, feel free to give me advice… :/